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The Awareness and Consciousness Podcast

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#67 Consciousness and moving Beyond the Mind

Eva Beronius and Gary van Warmerdam explore moving from identifying with the mind to realizing our Self as Consciousness.

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#39: What is a belief?

A belief begins as a conceptual idea in our mind. Then our imagination turns it into something like a dream, or virtual reality. A belief, particularly a false belief, has the capacity to create an illusion in our imagination that seems like reality.

#10: Can you change your life

I often get asked if people can really change their life. They want to known if they can overcome fears, stop the judgments, and quiet the voice in their head. The answer is yes. However, when people ask, they usually ask with such fear and doubt that almost no amount of words will suffice. Perhaps this interview will help overcome some of those doubts.

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#67 Consciousness and moving Beyond the Mind

Eva Beronius and Gary van Warmerdam explore moving from identifying with the mind to realizing our Self as Consciousness.

August 31, 2020
#66 Trauma symptoms and treatments

Trauma is often the cause of anxiety, depression, ADHD, anger, harsh self judgment, suicidal thoughts, and other mood disorders. It is much more common than you think. You don’t just get PTSD from wartime combat. Your brain and nervous system can be altered from sexual assault, abuse, bullying, emotionally abusive parents, even if they never hit you, surgery, or a car accident.

August 25, 2020
#65 Beliefs I’m Broken and Unlovable that Produce Shame

To change a belief sometimes it helps to understand where and how it came to be. When you understand why and how you started to believe your thoughts about being wrong, bad, unlovable, or broken, you have new perspective on those ideas. You can understand their time and place from who you are today, instead of who you were when those beliefs may have helped. You can also see why it is not true today, or not true before that moment you began believing in your false ego identity as who you were.

July 28, 2020
#63 Overcoming Trauma and Living Happy

My interview with Anna and her journey out of trauma reactions using the skills and perspectives she learned in the Self Mastery practices. Combining them with EMDR treatments and other modalities to go from anxiety, depression, anger and suicidal thoughts, to Living Happy.

July 21, 2020
#62 Overwhelmed with Emotions – Why am I so Angry?

Where do you start making changes when you are overwhelmed with emotions? Understanding the deep sources of emotions help us move into compassion, and decrease the impact of the Inner Judge. Beginning steps include acknowledging where you are, accepting it, and then finding one small change to get you started.

June 16, 2020
#61-Fear Virus – Live Self Mastery Get Together

There is a fear virus going through people’s minds and emotions at the same time there is a biological Corona virus infecting people’s physical bodies. The spread of fear is a lot faster and more widespread. There are things you can do to protect yourself, and improve your emotional state.

March 23, 2020
#60 Emotional Wounds and Relationship Baggage

Emotional wounds show up as our “baggage” in relationships. They are our unhealed emotions and beliefs from past experiences and affect our current relationships. Physical wounds can be seen but emotional wounds are invisible. They are experienced as emotional reactions, negative thoughts, and sabotaging behaviors. Understand them and you will be more compassionate to yourself and others.

February 24, 2020
#59 Self Mastery Interview with Eva

Interview with Eva, a Self Mastery Course subscriber who worked her way out of panic attacks, anxiety, depression, and career burnout to build a completely different life. Letting go of fears and eventually feeling joy and love was a surprise change, until it became the new normal.

November 12, 2019
#58: How to Relax

This podcast will guide you through a breathing practice using specific techniques to relax your nervous system and brain. There are reasons that breathing techniques can help you relax. Breathing. When done properly it bypasses your intellect and directs your nervous system to switch off the tension and hyper-vigilance. This is something that you can’t do by thinking better thoughts or trying to be positive.

November 5, 2019
#57: Critical voice in your head

The critical voice in your head telling you whether you are succeeding or failing at things is actually pretty stupid. It sounds smart, acts confident, and pretends to be an expert. However, it hasn’t actually done any of the things it is criticizing you about.

November 6, 2018
#56: Social anxiety from unconscious beliefs

A man shares what he discovers as the source of his social anxiety that began when he was in 3rd grade. In this podcast I describe a process to dig into the layers of your unconscious beliefs, and release the emotional beliefs trapped there.

August 23, 2018
#55: Origin of ego and false beliefs of identity

What are the false beliefs that form our Ego?  Where do our false beliefs come from?  When did we begin to get these false beliefs o our identity and lose touch with our authentic self?

November 12, 2016
#54: How do you recognize the truth?

From a consciousness perspective, even statements that are factual are still not the Truth. Words are what we use to describe a thing, or facts. But words are not the thing itself.

November 7, 2016
#53: Why lie to your self?

Lying to your self can cause a response in the reasoning part of your brain that makes you feel good. Sometimes people confuse this good feeling with being right, or feeling that they have just agreed with an explanation that is truthful.

October 30, 2016
#52: Self loathing

Self loathing is a strong hatred towards oneself.  You will also find with it a lot of internal thoughts of criticism and self judgment. Underneath that there will be a layer of beliefs relating to worthlessness.

August 3, 2016
#51: Unconscious beliefs

Unconscious beliefs are agreements we have in our mind that we have no awareness we are holding. In spite of not having any intellectual knowledge of our own beliefs, they can still cause us to have emotional reactions and sabotaging behaviors.

July 20, 2016
#50: Personal power and responsibility

When you take responsibility for your life, you also accept a power over it. Taking responsibility for the good stuff is easy, it is the not so good stuff that feels uncomfortable. But this is what you want the power to change.

June 12, 2016
#49: Anxiety – understanding it differently

Attempts to overcoming or at least reduce anxiety tend to fail. Perhaps our efforts fail because we are applying the wrong understanding, and therefore the wrong model for changing it.

February 23, 2016
#48: Becoming the observer – mindfulness practice

When we act in the way of a neutral observer we notice different things. We notice when thoughts are arising from parts of our ego and the emotions they produce. We can also notice the idealized version in the background of our mind being used as comparison.

January 7, 2016
#47: Reality, projections and illusions

Once you realize that the mind that is distorting things is at the beginning of our perception and interpretation of events, you become aware that perceiving reality is much more difficult.

December 10, 2015
#46: Affirmations can backfire

Sometimes people get poor results with affirmations. When they say positive things about themselves the dialogue of thoughts in their head pushes back with harsh negative comments.

November 16, 2015
#45: The Hero’s journey

The hero’s journey is the classic tale often told through movies and stories going back to The Odyssey by Homer and many modern versions. It’s appeal is that it represents our journey to create peace and happiness within our self and our own mind.

April 26, 2013
#44: Persistence and resistance

What does resistance look like and how do you navigate around it to make changes in your self? Jamie is one of the most persistent people at doing personal change work that I know. She also resists change, happiness and unconditional love more than just about anyone I know.

May 21, 2012
#43: Overcoming insecurity and develop confidence

Attempts to develop confidence often fail because they revolve around projecting a positive self image or achieving success. Unfortunately these two things don’t eliminate other beliefs causing feelings of insecurity.

April 19, 2012
#42: Stop beating your self up

To effectively change the thoughts and beliefs we beat our self up with it is important to look at the problem differently. That’s what I do in this episode on what specifically happens when you are “beating yourself up”.

February 19, 2012
#41: Meditation for beginners

This simple meditation lets anyone begin to enter into a state of mindfulness using a very common sense practical approach. What our mind construes as a deeply mystical thing like meditation doesn’t have to be so esoteric.

January 9, 2012
#40: Self awareness and mindfulness

Understanding how your mind creates emotional reactions is key to making personal change. This understanding of the mind is done through mindfulness, also know as Self Awareness.

December 12, 2011
#39: What is a belief?

A belief begins as a conceptual idea in our mind. Then our imagination turns it into something like a dream, or virtual reality. A belief, particularly a false belief, has the capacity to create an illusion in our imagination that seems like reality.

November 14, 2011
#38: Self Mastery Course results interview

David served in the Army and National Guard. After responding to the World Trade Center and Afghanistan he came home and discovered that his emotional reactions were out of control and inappropriate. In this interview he shares how the Self Mastery course has helped him.

May 17, 2011
#37: Confusion about love, compassion, hope, integrity and loyalty

Even the basic building blocks of language such as words can be distorted and made confusing by how the mind alters their meaning when we are not aware.

April 14, 2011
#36: Anger management

I don’t think we should just manage our anger. I believe in eliminating anger. Trying to control triggers, circumstances, and other people so we don’t become angry is too much work.

March 22, 2011
#35: Sexual performance anxiety

At the core of sexual performance anxiety are fear of failure, rejection from our partner and self rejection. These expressions take place in our mind and affect our emotions.

February 3, 2011
#34: Spiritual journey interview

Carolyn comes to a seven day intensive and discovers what it is like to shed fear based self judgments from her childhood and embrace the experience of unconditional love. It’s no longer an intellectual idea that she reads about in books. It is a tangible way of living life that is now a very real possibility for her life.

August 25, 2010
#33: Inception and the life of an idea in the mind

Careful observation reveals that  ideas, thoughts, and beliefs behave as if they are alive in the mind. When ideas grow and link together with other ideas they become big stories and can have multiple points of view and tangents.

August 3, 2010
#32: The most important thing for your happiness

Sometimes it helps to take a step back and have a sense of humor about the process of overcoming fears, identifying and changing core beliefs.

June 23, 2010
#31: Miguel Ruiz and The Fifth Agreement

An interview with Miguel Ruiz about his book that is written with his son Jose Ruiz. We also talk about how the belief system creates a virtual reality, how we distort love, how to use doubt to question your beliefs and other things.

May 12, 2010
#30: Overcoming anger using the Self Mastery program

I interviewed Joe who used the Self Mastery course to overcome his anger and anxiety reactions. He’s started to be aware that some of his emotional reactions are completely gone.

March 26, 2010
#29: Faith: the power behind your beliefs

Faith is more than a set of beliefs there is no evidence for or a doctrine of religious beliefs. Faith is a force. It is an aspect of your personal will power that you can use in various ways.

February 17, 2010
#28: Conscious awakening

Waking up to the unconscious beliefs in your mind is an uncomfortable and disconcerting realization. In this episode I outline what is happening so you can keep the process in a larger perspective.

January 21, 2010
#27: Reasoning your way out of fear

Applying reasoning skills to overcoming fears is an uphill battle. That’s because the emotions we feel push us against accepting truthful reasoning. That’s because our fictional, or false beliefs often make us feel better emotionally.

July 17, 2009
#26: Overcoming fear of what others think of you

There is a structure of beliefs that support the fear of what others think of you. When you dismantle these beliefs, your fear dissipates, as well as the internal dialog that it drives. In this podcast I guide you through some of the resistance you will probably find when you attempt to overcome your fears.

June 15, 2009
#25: Overcoming controlling behavior of jealousy and anger

David started the Self Mastery Course because of emotions and behaviors for jealousy, anger and controlling in relationships. It was difficult to see himself having this problem because David’s belief system masked and justified his behavior as “helping people”. In his mind he was serving and helping people.

April 6, 2009
#24: Fear and origins of the financial crisis

I cover how to use awareness to break free of fearful resistance to taking action. Jut for fun I also get into understanding origins of the financial crisis. The problem with bubbles, financial, romantic, or otherwise, is that they originate in the mind as illusions.

February 19, 2009
#23: Dealing with financial fears

Dealing with and overcoming financial fears isn’t a one step process. Those fears can be intertwined with real survival needs for the body like food, shelter, and providing for your children. Financial fears can also be from projected scenarios in the imagination that have nothing to do with reality.

January 22, 2009
#22: Change your life – interview with Holly

In this interview I follow up with Holly who I interviewed in early 2007. She has continued to practice the exercises in the Self Mastery Course 1 and added the practices from the Self Mastery Course 2. The result is that she has transformed her emotions from fear to love.

December 12, 2008
#21: Fear Doctrine: The creation of anger and agression

Fear is at the core of anger and aggression. Yet we become so busy with the strategy of control and the act of aggression we rarely see the cause. We can see the emotional dynamic at work whether we look at our internal thoughts, relationships or the macro relationships of countries.

October 29, 2008
#20: The value of a spiritual teacher or mentor

If the emotional quality of your life and relationships were solely dependent on how smart you were then you wouldn’t need a teacher. But that isn’t the case. A book can’t teach or model for you self acceptance, respect, love or gratitude.

July 25, 2008
#19: Understanding the spiritual journey

All self help, personal development, growth, and self awareness work is part of the Spiritual Journey. That’s because Spirit means Life. The mystery of the Spiritual Journey is that it happens within the realm of your perceptions, mind, emotions, and consciousness.

June 26, 2008
#18: Changing habits and overcoming addictions

People attempt to change a habit or addiction by going cold turkey. This often raises the expectation too high and can set a person up for failure if they don’t yet have a lot of personal power or discipline. The result is failing and self judgment.

May 17, 2008
#17: Self Judgment

Self Judgment is the most common type of abuse. It’s self abuse. No one is more critical of you than the voice in your head. If anyone else talked to you the way the Judge in your mind spoke to you, you would fight back or walk away from them.

April 7, 2008
#16: Faith and personal power

Faith is a force. It is part of your life force. When you express your faith you are expressing part of your personal power. If you are seeking to develop more personal power, one of the fastest ways is to recover your faith from all the beliefs in your mind you have invested it in.

January 24, 2008
#15: Finding your self

Finding your self or figuring out who you are is one of those eternal questions. We often struggle with it as teenagers, then again in our thirties, or during a mid life crisis. The struggle to know thy Self is as old as spiritual traditions that attempted to answer the question.

August 20, 2007
#14: Free will

Do you have free will? Is there even such a thing as free will? It is true that we are to some degree products of our environment. Our minds get filled with ideas, beliefs and emotional patterns as we grow up.

July 1, 2007
#13: How to tell if a relationship will work

There are specific indicators to tell if your relationship will run into trouble down the road. The signs aren’t found in how much love, romance or physical attraction there is. Two people can have great chemistry but still not be compatible.

April 11, 2007
#12: Don’t take anything personally

In the book, The Four Agreements, Miguel Ruiz outlines a code of conduct for creating love and happiness in your life. One of his Four Agreements is “Don’t Take Anything Personally”. In this episode I describe some of the hidden assumptions that cause us to take things personally.

February 23, 2007
#11: The ego mind and consciousness

Understanding the ego mind and consciousness means becoming aware of the way our mind dreams. The ego mind has more than just thoughts and beliefs; it has emotions, memories, visual images and a life of its own. When we believe what our imagination dreams we can get lost in a world of illusions.

January 28, 2007
#10: Can you change your life

I often get asked if people can really change their life. They want to known if they can overcome fears, stop the judgments, and quiet the voice in their head. The answer is yes. However, when people ask, they usually ask with such fear and doubt that almost no amount of words will suffice. Perhaps this interview will help overcome some of those doubts.

January 1, 2007
#09: Fear of love and happiness

It might be hard to believe that we fear love and happiness, but it is a real dynamic that happens in the mind. It is easier to understand if we consider the mind to be a living being with many different aspects. We are essentially killing off false self images of our personality.

December 1, 2006
#08: Fear and overcoming fear

Fear is that emotional force that drives us in a direction away from joy, happiness, and love. Fear can paralyze us to the point that we feel helpless and suffocated. Often fear appears irrational, but it only looks this way at the surface.

November 15, 2006
#07: Identify and change core beliefs

What are core beliefs and how do you identify them? That’s what many people are realizing they need to do to change their emotional reactions. The problem is where do you look to find core beliefs?

October 31, 2006
#06: Love relationships part II

Our body has physical desires, our emotions have a desire to express love and our mind has a desire to have its beliefs and expectations met. This can create some internal conflict that gets more complicated when we add another person’s desires to the mix.

October 11, 2006
#05: Love relationships part I

Desires for a relationship come from deep within us. They aren’t desires for a specific person so much as a need for expression and experience of connection and feeling that we can have with another person. Those desires include the emotion of love, physical affection and sexual satisfaction.

September 30, 2006
#04: Happiness as choice

Experts will advise you that in order to be happy you first have to make yourself happy. What they usually can’t explain is how to make your self happy. What I try to uncover in my work and in this audio is some of the mystery that surrounds an individual’s happiness. 

September 12, 2006
#03: Emotional reactions

When it comes to stopping or changing emotional reactions people often approach the problem like they are fixing a car. The assumption seems to be that if we change one thing the whole problem will go away.

August 22, 2006
#02: The Four Agreements and hidden assumptions

In this episode I cover some places that assumptions hide. I do a little poking around to show you what they look like. I also show how they lead us down dark alleys chasing illusions in our mind. Becoming aware of those dark alleys of mental illusions will make it easier to get out.

August 15, 2006
#01: Feeling not good enough – beliefs

A big component of feeling insecure is the image of perfection that we create in our mind. When the voice in our head compares us to that image of perfection it concludes that we are not good enough. Buying into this comparison with an imagined self is what creates the feeling of not being good enough.

August 11, 2006

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Who is this mind?

I came here looking for some other podcast who I had heard on Insight Timer. I searched Happiness, as that was the title of that meditation and I guess what we all go searching for... This gentleman is crystal clear brilliance. There is mind opening stuff here that you know to be true already and needed a mirror as crystal clear as this brilliant one to shine the light what needed enlightening.

Accessible, practical, highly effective

While much of what Gary says is not new to me, his presentation pulls it all together in an accessible and practical way. His information is current. I have found his exercises very effective because he presents them in small bites. To echo other reviewers, his verbal presentation of the material is superior, and perhaps a big reason I keep listening to the same ones over and over.

Fundamentally changed my life

I can't even begin so express how grateful I am for Gary and his reassuring guidance through the murky tangle that can be our relationship with our minds. He made plain so many traps and attachments that I'd been living with almost instinctually for years. I happily bought the audio series and it, too, was wonderful. He's soothing, centering, and never, ever tries to sell you his material. He doesn't have to. It's that good. If I ever meet him, I'm going to give him a hug and thank him from the bottom of my heart. You won't be disappointed.

Excellent :)

Excellent. Thank-you. Very deep. Very thoughtful. Very introspective. I enjoy every moment of every podcast. Nice voice. Nice persona. Nice presentation of material. Thank-you for your contribution towards helping others and becoming a better person.

If this is a joke, it's pretty well done

Listening to this ineloquent man recite mundane, basic and banal story-telling concepts is uninspiring. If it is in fact a joke, then is actually kind of inspiring.

Better than I thought

I thought this would be just like the other millions of self development stuff I've reviewed but truly, this man speaks deeply and doesn't just help one to fix up problems in ones life...he teaches WHY they happen and the prophylaxis for them. Thank you and pleeeeeease do continue!

Sign me up!

Been listening to the pod casts this past week as I traveled on business. I have been wanting to change my attitude but have not made the commitment. That has changed. I just signed up for the course and am now on my journey. I cannot wait to see what is around the next corner.

Fantastic - A truly USEFUL podcast

This is a great podcast. Not only is the presentation great (good recording quality, good intonation and pace) but the content is stellar. Each podcast contains truly useful information and leaves me with new thinks to contemplate.

Great Podcast!

These podcasts are very helpful and I highly recommend them to anyone who is interested in being happy. In just a few weeks I've started to be more accepting of others and have given up the need to be right. This has been a very liberating experience for me. Gary van Warmerdam talks to your rather than lectures. His integrity comes through loud and clear. And he really is committed to helping others achieve happiness through self awareness. Thank you, Gary van Warmerdam and iTunes, for broadcasting this enlightening podcast.


4,5 on Apple Podcasts

Thank you everyone for your reviews, they are appreciated and help me spread the word to more people! /Gary

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