I’m Not Grateful for Anything

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Dear Gary

I listened to your first Self Mastery session on Gratitude and I don’t think it will help me.  In it you use the trigger question to remind our selves what we are grateful for by asking, “What are you most grateful for?” 

The problem that I have with that question Gary is I am not grateful for anything. I have been victimized my whole life–from childhood, all the way to now. At least, that is my perception as I see it at this moment in time. I am going through a very, very angry and bitter stage in my adult life. My sister and I are survivors of incest. I was the victim of a false rape accusation — though the truth did come out at trial and I was found not guity; but my reputation and my livelihood as of right now due to the internet where anybody can say anything about anybody with n0 repercussions has been ruined.   My sanctionary Gary is nature: love of animals, hiking in the woods, and the mountains have truly been my saving grace. If this wasn’t available to me–I would have been dead long ago. Any suggestions you have for a wounded animal like myself, (and I have been victimized), would be greatly appreciated. I will pay for them if I have to, with love

R. G. 

Hi R. G.

I’m confused…. I get this statement in the beginning.
The problem that I have with that question Gary is I am not grateful for anything.

and later I get this ….
My sanctuary Gary is nature: love of animals,  hiking in the woods, and the mountains have truly been my saving grace. If this wasn’t available to me–I would have been dead long ago. 
Can both these statements be true?   

Or maybe I read the first line wrong.  I read it as “there’s nothing I have to be grateful for.”  When it’s really meant the way you wrote it. “I am not grateful for anything.”  Even though you have something to be grateful for.   So is there a contradiction here or did I miss something?

If I am confused here,,,, and you mean something else, then please explain.

Gary

Dear Gary,

Your right, there is a contradiction in my statement. I guess I am grateful for the sanctuary that I have access to. Great point!

Dear R. G.

Let that be your first lesson in hunting lies,,, they are not so easy to see when in our head, but much easier to see when written down in front of you.  More about that in later sessions.
And the added benefit of seeing that you are already grateful for something,,, and you know how it feels.
Happy hunting,